it's 3 am

I hate that it's 3 a.m. and that I'm awake.

I'm awake because Laine is awake screaming in her bed.

She used to be such a great sleeper until she got sick.

Now she keeps waking up.

I'm letting her cry, which doesn't bother me anymore, except for the fact that it keeps me awake.

Trying to sleep train an almost 2 year old is way harder than trying to do it with a 6 month old.

Especially when she gets herself so crazy mad that she poops.

And then the screaming changes from "Hug you! hug you!" to "Change you! Change you!"

So I'm forced to go in and get her.

But, I'm not great at sleep training babies either.

I have good intentions with this new baby.

But those will all fly out the window in 4 weeks.

Any advice. You'd think I'd know by now right?

Well, I don't.

And that's why I'm awake at 3 a.m. Listening to Laine cry.

Oh, and should I mention that Gwen wakes up and come in my room every night.

She asks to get in bed with us.

But she knows better, so she drags her sleeping bag in with her.

Her sleeping bag and her pillow pet.

She sleeps on the floor next to the bed.

And now after listening to Laine cry for so long (how long has it been? I don't know.)

I'm temped to go in there just so I can get some sleep.

Oh hell.